smiling at nothingness...

cristinaburwell

These pictures were taken out of sheer boredom inside one of the cubicles in my office building's comfort rooms.

Fair warning....

Emo kid

Sickly pale

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yeah I haven't resigned yet... And I have to update whoever has the time to read what crap I write here....

Oh yeah my daughter was reunited with her prodigal father a few weeks back...

And after that I was hospitalized and I had a rotten polyph taken out of me...

On a happier note... My little girl is big enough to dance the rhumba!

I'm growing older... But then again, isn't she adorable?

Update you on more...

i'm on leave for a week! Yay! recupperating!

And for this entry, I'd use PINK.

I just feel as if the color is appropriate. Sorry to reminisce but I really miss these people. These are the souls who I shared my life as an awkward and wide eyed teenager and who are now sharing my life as a more awkward and more wide eyed adult.

We went through the overkill woes of teen-dom and we are now battling with the horrors of quarter life crisis.

Sometimes I think that I'm the only person who is going through life's dilemmas but being with them again reminded me that every 20-something out there is struggling with some kind of problem too. Wether it's something to do with a drunken love life... dysfunctional families or the dreaded payslip, everyone of my age is battling their own demons regardless of how good they look or whether their parents still provide them with credit plastic.

So there we are, all smiles... Two (mother) packers(package designers), a tech moron/single mom, a jet setting CPA, a wiccan porn translator, an etherial student and a young OB-GYN... We used to be just your average run of the mill students a few years back... What we have right now ain't too bad, at least we have each other...

That's what counts.

cristinaburwell

I really do apologize for the grainy picture but this is the only thing that I can pull out online that was taken during my age of innocence...

I miss this girl.

This girl wrote like a woman possessed. She scribbled everywhere she went. She didn't fear what other people think. She sang her heart out whenever she's feeling glum with high hopes that she could turn a bad day into an adventurous one. She used to pretend that she's just a princess evicted from a castle high up and here on earth she must battle with real every day dragons and demons. She used to dance like crazy when nobody's looking... Most of the times she doesn't even give a shit if a whole crowd is watching. She used to make the violin cry like there is no tomorrow and fly beautiful chinese kites until dusk.

I don't know where she went. Sometimes whenever I look at myself in the mirror I could see her smiling back at me as if we have a wee bit of a secret.

But I miss this girl.

Through the hustle and bustle of adult life, I long to take long walks with her. To tell her not to worry and enjoy life as it come.

I want to tell her not to grieve for me. Because eventhough I am in a position that she never ever dreamed of as one of her realities, I want to tell her that she still has the power to make her own decisions...

That this could be NOT reality but just a fragment of what is supposed to be.

cristinaburwell

I GOT PROMOTED.... Or I think... I'm going to be living in a hotel for the next couple of weeks... I need to be job hunting for a shack in Batangas. Hahahaha...

 WISH ME LUCK GUYS!

I would need a total make over for this big step. I need to redo my wardrobe into corporate drab... sighs... Gastos nanaman. Badtrip!

It's so hard to face the fact that I'm going to move out of Teletech Nova in two days... I have to surrender my access card, my Verizon manual and I have to leave the family that I've known for the past year .

When this company took me in, all that I knew about computers was that I could pull up Word and do Photoshop. Nothing about the Technical stuff. But now I could do networking and can make you connect to a dsl wireless connection in a jiffy! Last year, all I dreamed of was to get the training over and done with so that I could support my baby. But now I'm ready to embark in another journey.

Goodbye technical stuff... Hello HEALTHCARE.

Yes, I am the one that is chosen to pioneer the launch of one of America's leading looney drug company here in RP. I'm going to be the product specialist basically and teach people how to handle crazy people who orders anti-depressants over the phone.

whatever... don't they know I'm diagnosed with severe psychosis?